I want to read a book.
So I currently have 22 items checked out from the library, 12 of these items are books. 5 I’m at least partway through, 7 that I haven’t even started yet.
I haven’t read an actual book all the way through in months. It’s legitimately been months. Plus I have at least 4 books in my room that I own and haven’t begun to read.
I’m fairly certain the last book I read all the way through was Everyday, by David Levithan. Fantastic book, I read it in a matter of days, in…November, I believe. I don’t know when the last book I finished before that was. Maybe September?
I don’t know why, but my brain just doesn’t want to finish a book, I just can’t convince myself to read the books in my room. I can convince myself to check a book out, but I can’t convince my brain to actually read it once I have it in my room. I can read things, I’ve read plenty of things on the internet, but not a proper physical book. I can always convince myself to check tumblr one last time before I go to sleep, or to get up an extra hour early to watch that Doctor Who rerun on BBCA, but never to read one of those lovely books. So instead, I just keep renewing them. I’ve had some of these books checked out since August, just sitting there waiting to be read.
Two of the books I have checked out are books I’ve read before! They’re both fantastic, and I’d love to reread them, hence why I’ve checked them out, but I feel like I need to finish the books I haven’t read before I reread those.
The point of all of this is that today I’ve checked out Silver Linings Playbook, and I really want to read this in a timely manner, partially because I’d love to see the movie, and I’d like to read the book before I do so. I don’t know what’s wrong with me right now, but I feel like I need to say something to hold myself accountable for it, to force me to get get my butt in gear and just do it already.
So tonight, I am not going to catch up on Supernatural (or Bones, or Parks & Rec, or anything else I’m behind on…), I am not going to read that article about Michelle Obama at the inauguration, I am not going to listen to This Year on repeat for several hours while fixing my nails, I am going to read a fucking book.
If I haven’t finished it by Monday, somebody come find me and punch me in the face until I do it.